Should I stay?

[Marazooo]

Hello, I'm looking for some advice please as I really don't know what to do...
3 years ago I was diagnosed with cervical cancer, which resulted in having a trachelectomy (removal of cervix).
As the way the abnormal cells were growing was a very rare case and the doctors wouldn't know until I was in surgery exactly how far the cells were, I didn't know if I would wake up from surgery with or without my womb.
The thought of losing my fertility was devastating and I knew if that happened it would break me...fortunately the cells were 1mm away from my womb and the surgery was a success! I felt like the luckiest person in the world!
I've (touching wood) had all clear results since!
I was in an 8 year relationship at the time, which unfortunately went downhill at the same time as the diagnosis...we broke up just over 2 years ago and now I've moved on.
I'm now 32 and really really want children...I've been with my new partner (who's 26) for around 18 months.
Our relationship is a little unconventional...he's just bought a house alone an hour away, closer to work and I'm house hunting to buy a house on my own for the time being...I'm happy with this as want my own security and to be independent, a lesson learned after the last relationship breakdown.
My problem is, I was hoping to start trying for a baby in around a year...I love my partner so much and can see a great future together and everything just feels different with him compared any previous relationships.
I'm panicking about my age and fertility and know that there's a risk the cancer could come back and also with no cervix it's more difficult to conceive and risk of miscarriage is higher.
I know that after 35 fertility becomes more difficult too...I've talked to my partner about this...unfortunately he's not great with voicing emotions and finds it tough talking about feelings, which makes it more difficult.
He's not ready for a baby and at this stage thinks to start trying in a year or 2 is too soon for him.
The last thing I want to do is pressure him to having a baby...
He talks about the idea of me moving into his house in the future and I know sees a future together, we love each other a lot. He's scared of the idea of kids but does want them, he just doesn't know when.
I'm scared if I stay with him and wait for him to be ready that then we won't be able to conceive and that would be devastating. Or worse that in 3-5 years it won't work out and I'll be childless.
The last thing we want is to break up...he said he does see a future together but has commitment issues, he sympathises with my situation but doesn't want to rush into having children when he's not ready (which I totally understand).
I'm having a dilemma about whether I should stay with him and potentially miss out on having children if he's not ready in a few years or if I should leave, although I really don't want to leave as I love him so much!
I wish we could just relax and let things run the natural course without any pressure but due to my past health issues I feel a huge weight hanging over me.
He's a really good guy and we want the best for each other, he said he will try to be ready in a year or 2 but can't promise he will be and the last thing he wants is to hurt me or leave me childless but just simply isn't ready...which I do understand.
Should I stay with him and wait, hope and pray? Or should we finish things now, as heartbreaking as that would be?

No one can tell you what to choose.

I’ll just say - if I were you - i’d freeze some eggs now. This way - you can extend your fertility for a lot longer and have options in the future.

And - of course he isn’t ready at 26. And even in a few years time - he may or may not be.
Sorry - it’s not an easy situation.

I’ll just say - if I were you - i’d freeze some eggs now

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I agree with this.

It's quite a dilemma and it's good your both being honest with each other and have discussed it.

I wouldn't stay in the hope of changing his mind. if anything having kids puts a strain and can force you to be together leading to resentment and cheating or push you away. that's my experience and my circles experience only.

I suppose speak to a fertility expert and get the actual facts if you haven't done so. I realise you may have been told in general what you can expect but is make an appointment with a fertility doctor and have your options, chances and timeline assessed properly with tests etc.

then make an informed decision.

Freezing eggs sounds sensible , really good advice from @josuk

Due to your medical history would you be eligible for ivf with sperm donor ? I'd maybe be thinking of going alone if I were you.

Thank you so much for all of your helpful posts. I've spoken to my oncologist about egg freezing in the past and if I'd be eligible on the NHS but he said not unless I'd been unsuccessfully trying for at least a year. It's scary to think that my womb could've been removed and nobody even mentioned egg freezing, I guess at that time I probably would have been eligible.
The oncologist also said he thought embryo freezing would be better and more effective, however that's difficult without a man willing to become a father right now!
I've been looking into egg freezing and sperm donation with IVF further today after your helpful recommendations and also have read some success stories from women who have had babies after a trachelectomy which has been helpful and gives a bit more hope.
The difficulty is I'm trying to get security with my own house and then to add the expense of the above options on top of that if I can't go through the NHS route is a bit overwhelming!
But at least if I have the house sorted, get security and then save for this I'm not waiting around relying on someone else.
So many things to think about!
Thank you so much x

Also going to speak to a fertility doctor to see what they advise x