My dp is a lovely man. He has a heart of gold just sometimes he's a bit useless. I kinda resent him a bit for not helping me around the house etc (he's temporarily unemployed. It wouldn't bother me if he had a full time job. He got let go recently) but I've found in the past few weeks he's really decided to pull his socks up and really help me out. It's almost back to normal like before we had dd.
So he's always the first to tell me everyday that he finds me beautiful etc. It's lovely. An he will always find the time to express love for me and tell me how thankful he is for me. Which is so nice.
We have a daughter together and I'm expecting our son in a few weeks. But lately I've found myself looking at him and thinking how such an attractive man really would want me after he's seen the massacre of me birthing his daughter. I think hormones come into play a bit here, my body at the moment.. I'm 37 weeks and I feel like a whale but I feel like I've also lost myself. My bump is huge. I've lost weight this pregnancy etc but I'm left saggy, which is okay, but nothing for my confidence. I've spent only 2 months of the past year not pregnant (11 months between our dcs).
I've just turned so insecure and at nights he's trying to love me etc but I've started having panic attacks over it. I want to be comfortable with him, but I'm not in myself and don't even want him to see me naked anymore. I confessed today that sex now made me feel so anxious. Especially as it hurts in terms of foreplay etc. I think he was kinda hurt that I didn't feel comfortable with him...
Does this feeling get better?