Background info:
Been with dp for 21 years (not married). Two adult DCs both students so still dependant.
Our relationship broke down 8 years ago. DP refused to leave the property, said i would have to move out and because i had just been made redundant wouldn't be able to take children with me as no income to support them. I was trapped financially. A couple of years passed and we patched things up.
It has just dawned on me that 'patching' things up was basically me doing everything to try and keep him happy. Lost all my friends because he didn't like me going out with or without him. I stopped my gym membership because he said we couldn't afford it (we could). I was working again full time but he was never happy that house chores/cooking/cleaning etc not up to scratch. He worked full time but obviously worked harder than me in his mind and shouldn't have to clean or attend one of the dcs appointments/events etc. Constantly walking on egg shells
Mental/emotional abuse grew and grew, it's been like water torture but i know i am not going mad/ungrateful/useless and every other insult he has thrown at me. I slept on the sofa last night as couldn't stand to be in the same bed. His response was to come down and wake me up every 2 hours, shouting, throwing things.
I am at breaking point. Still can't afford to move out but really cannot stay any longer. i am worrying about when he comes home from work already.
what an earth do i do? has anyone else had a similar situation?
sorry this is long and full of waffle.