I dont know but I have no intention of doing anything. You lot have confirmed I'm not mad for thinking it wasn't an accident. I haven't called him a liar because even if it were an accident, I'm most bothered by him Insisting I'm unreasonable for thinking otherwise, especially after some of his behaviour since our split.
He was never abusive in the relationship, we simply weren't compatible anymore and became toxic on both parts due to pressure. I've done a lot of work to better myself as I've recognised my own shortcomings.
But he has just consistently tried to punish me for it since.
The weekend we split was triggered by him getting angry because he brought some keys home from his new job and needed to take them back but our car was off the road. He wanted me to ask if my friends fella would drive him. But they'd had a baby less than 24 hours before so I refused to ask. He hadn't seen me for four days and he was kicking off like anything at me over it. Which he denied. I never moaned at him for having to spend fifty quid on a taxi to take them back. And when he came back got annoyed because his "sorry about earlier" didn't immediately make things ok. I decided to end it then. But I was going to do it after ds's birthday. But on the day he started an argument accusing me if killing one if his fish because I didn't feed them fir one day. Which I never agreed to do in the first place and in fact explicitly told him I would have nothing to do with and didn't feel comfortable being responsible for. I looked after two huskys as it was that he wanted. One is mine now though. The dog chose me lol.
And it all came out and I ended it.
He's accused me of leaving him to be with the guy I'm seeing now. I didn't do that. I have months of messages where I'd tried to end things for similar reasons as I did that day. That day I just meant it because it was killing me. I was smoking weed to keep my anxiety symptoms at bay which only makes the anxiety worse when you stop.
I stopped smoking it over night when I left the house. It'd not bothered me once and I can sleep without it or any medication. I haven't been able to do that for a long time.
Its like he wants to punish me but I ended it so that both of us could be better people. He can't spend his life with someone he doesn't understand and I don't blame him for that but I'm made out to be some sort of monster.
I'm a better person and a better parent than I was towards the end with him. And so is he. I don't get why he does shit to sabotage that.
I left the house etc. I've not once tried to make this any more difficult than it needs to be yet I'm told I'm the trouble causer all the time.