This is so hard and really struggling

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DH told me that he wasn’t sure if he wanted to be married to me back in November. I have spent 4 months of hell trying to get him help for depression and hoping things would improve but they haven’t.

I’m now in a new house sharing with a nice girl. Work is going good. I don’t really have any of my own friends in this city but have some mutual friends with DH who are lovely.

I feel so lonely and so sad. I just want to go home back to my DH and for none of this to have happened. I can’t stop crying all the time. I can’t really eat anything. I am thinking about going to my mums house a 6 hr train ride away but I’m working tomorrow. I just feel so lost.

Please someone tell me it gets easier. What can I do to help?

Just take it hour by hour. And look after yourself. If you can get to your mums go. Get support around you. See go and get signed off. And meds if you think it will help. And try and keep contact to a minimum.
I know how hard this situation is. But you need to look out for you. Try to eat what you can. But keep fluids up.

You will get through this. It just takes time. Tea and tears.

Try a bit of light hearted tinder... a friend recommended I try that in similar circumstances, and it really boosted my ego and got me out of my rut.

Don’t take it seriously though.. but I’ve had some fun, which had been lacking in my life for a while. I’m quite old and cynical though... b3 careful if you’re younger and not 😀

Thanks both. I was wondering about taking time off purely so I could go to my mums for a few days. But when I’m at work it’s the only time I feel normal! So I’m not sure.
I’d like to try tinder one day but it’s absolutely heaving with guys from work, and I’m not ready to navigate that situation yet

I wouldn't take time off work, being at work gives you focus, sitting around gives you time to dwell and overthink. Can you take a few days holiday and go to your mums? How long have you been married?