To put in context, things between DH and I are ok I guess.. not love's young dream but we get along fine. Lately I've been a little unhappy with the way things are and DH have discussed this but I kind of thought things were getting better.
On Thursday night I was away with work and we had rooms booked at a hotel to stay over. After our work function we all headed to the residents bar where there was a group of men who the bar had been opened up for. They invited us over (group of 10 women). I sat next to one of them, and we got along like a house on fire. I made it very clear I was married and he respected that completely. At the end of the night he said something along the lines of 'I wish you weren't married, we could have swapped phone numbers etc' and right at that point I remember thinking wow I actually wish I wasn't. He went to his room and I went to mine, nothing happened, but for me, wow it's like a lightbulb went off.
A year ago I would never have thought that, and in the past I've very easily rejected other men's advances but the fact that I did think that this time just made me think I really need to end this marriage don't I. I can't be truly happy if I wanted to be with another guy can i? I also was completely sober so no beer goggles or anything like that.