Toxic relationships - how to stay away?

[bubblebathh]

I'm in a position where I'm currently NC with my ex partner. He has done some horrific things to me, has treated me awfully. I am still in the process of coming fully to my senses and getting over him.

The last conversation we had he said some horrible things, and I've managed to not contact him since. The thing is, I know eventually he'll be in touch with me one way or another and telling me he loves me, he misses me, that he didn't mean any of the stuff he's done, and I need to try not to fall for it again.

I wish I could somehow transport this me to me in the future when he inevitably gets in touch and tell myself DO NOT FUCKING FALL FOR IT AGAIN.

Anyone else in a similar situation?

No, but if you are aware that you may fall for it again that's a positive step.

I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost... I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in the same place.
But, it isn't my fault.
It still takes me a long time to get out.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in. It's a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault. I get out immediately.

walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

I walk down another street.”

As shouldaknowbetter, you are aware of your behaviour. You can't be for his so just focus on getting yourself into healthier mind set about what constitutes a good relationship. In time, you can contrast that with how poorly the old one looks in comparison.
Your own self esteem and self care is the starting point. Really work hard on it and once thats in place then no end of his bullshit will get through. You will be impervious.