Alot! has happened in 2017. Got with my current boyfriend around Dec 2016, and started to live with him since March 2017. So that was just 3 months into our relationship. How I met him was, he lived at his dad's and I lived at my mums and they happen to be neighbours, only 2 doors away so occasionaly bumped into him untill he asked me on a date. He bought his own house On mortgage, which is 60 miles away and only moved into around time we got together as house was under construction that whole couple of years he had it prior to meeting me. I got the impression he was the one, considering we were neighbours at the start and we were both single and he had his life together with a good job and a place and was well kept. People seemed to like him and he went to the gym everyday. I was willing to just give it a go without taking it slow like I prob should have. Anyway we went on just a few dates at the start, and most of the time asked me to pay :/ which i wernt used too but thought maybe he was just seeing how I was like as a person. We did get on well and three months in, he asked me to 'not live or move in' but to come round his house to help him out, settle and stuff. So i did. I bought cook books and was learning recipes to cook him food he liked, I cleaned up everytime i went round and made him settle in his own home. Done his laundry washed the dishes. Gave him company. My job was only 5 mins from where i lived before, with my mum and she done most the household work such as cooking and laundry so my life was easier then. But I made the sacrifice to work full still at my job and travel 60 miles there and back every single day, do the cooking cleaning etc. I started to sleep round every night ever since. So in April I got pregnant so that was 1 month after I started going round and sleeping there with him. This was my 1st pregnancy so i was scared. He said he was happy and will look after me so i felt at ease but sadly misscarried 8 weeks later. I was sad and took a week off work. I was alone in the house grieving as he went to work and didn't stay with me so i had a mini break down/depressive moment. He has his own business and choses his own hours so he could have easily supported me or grieved with me. Anyway moving on i got pregnant again 4 weeks later. And till now i am still pregnant. Currently 8 months. Now thing im confused about is his lack of support. And does he truly love me ? And should I leave before baby comes? I left my mums home to stay with him just to make him settle in his own house, I cooked his meals every night and done his laundry, going out to do heavy bagged food shopping. I slept in the same bed with him every single night and did not even once spend a night out with mates or even during the day because he never liked it. I worked full time to self supprt myself and travelled hours from his to work every single day without complaining . I have attended all my antental appintments and he only came to one so far. Says he needs to works and men who do go are most likely men who dont work and on benefits with lots of time on their hands. Complains when sometimes the cleaning duties aint done and I then moan that he should help because I'm tired and also his so messy and I like a clean home but only to tell me I dont pay rent so it is my duty to do it. Tells me to stop moving so much at night when i am simply jist in pain from the pregnancy in my back. Tells me I have lost my shape and really fat and if I would be able to lose the weight. I feel so ugly and unattractive because of it. 8 months pregnant and I still have not met his family. yet all his does is talk about them and talk on the phone with them and when his not doing that his watching tv or having a fag and doesn't speak with me the whole night apart from 'what's for dinner my love'. Didn't even make it clear that Iam living here and can move my stuff in so spent all that year getting my letters from my mums and change of clothes. I dont even feel at home here anyway because its all decorated to his likings and im hardly allowed a say. He bought the baby cot and pram last month and I want to do a baby nursery i mean c'mon he has 3 spare bedrooms but his jjst not enthusiastic to do it. His shown no excitement and this is also his 1st. I paid for the 4d scan 140 pounds and he still didnt bother goibg to that either. He turnt vegetarian few months ago and has forced me to not eat meat and gets angry when i bring it in the house. we haven't been on any dates for months! I'm not only bored but forgotten what i like, what i enjoy. I been in maternity leave since this week and expects me to stay indoors and not go or see any1. I was saving before I met him but where i thought he would suport me I spent every penny of my money and now in a small debt by buying him expensive gifts on occasions and buying baby stuff and maternity clothes. Where his financially doing well i explained this to him and he said if I need money i can work for him so soon his goinh to set up a job for me in house to do all his paperwork and admin work. I can't see why he can't just suport me instead as im tired. I sacrificed many hours of extra work i used to do jist so driving back to his was possible and now on leave for a year.isnt growing a baby and cleaning n cooking and soon to be mum in just 6 weeks taking care of the baby enough work? He financially supports his mum n dad and helps his mates out with money all the time. If given him my time and loyalty and growing him this baby means not so much to him. When i mentioned marriage to him He said no because alot of women use men to take his money. He makes me feel worthless. I applied to the council to say im homeless and im not wanted at my mums nompre because her partner cant stand me and im worried if my partner will get worse after baby is here. Should i move into the prob hostel like accomodation im most Likely to get or try make it work. When i tell him aboit my feelings he just says i dont know whata right n whats wrong becsuse i was abused in the past. He uses my past against me. He says he loves me all the time n i Love him alot. But dont know wjat to do. He has done and said so much more things but I'll be here all night