I've seen quite a few threads on mumsnet recently, as well as had a few comments in real life that have really got to me and made me worry that maybe I am too emotionally dependant on DH. I dont think I would be able to cope without him and am starting to see its not healthy or fair on either of us.
We have been together for 12 years, married 8 and have 4 DC together, our relationship is loving and happy, I'm not questioning it at all, hes great, I just want to do better for him.
I have a history of mental health problems mainly anorexia and OCD however I am now (thanks to DH) coping well, I am not on any medication and have therapy much less frequently. But I feel I need my hand held by him too much and he has to either be really gentle with me or tip toe around to avoid upsetting me.
I guess I dont want this to be about me, I'm worried how difficult this must be for him and that I put too much on him, Untill this week I have never properly sat down and thought about how this will of affected him or how I dont provide him with the same emotional support and I feel shit for it, I'm feeling so selfish and ungrateful.
I dont really know what I'm asking for I just want some advice, Is anyone in a similar situation from either side of a relationship?
I know that it can only be a good thing for both of us for me to try not to lean on him so often but I'm not sure how to do this?
Normally I would be straight to DH for reassurance over these feelings and even by sharing them with strangers online instead I feel I am making some progress.