Hey
First time poster here, so be nice please!
I don't exactly know what I'm looking for here... Maybe advice, reassurance, any sort of input really!
I'm a 20yo girl (don't feel mentally mature enough to say 'woman' yet haha, and there's no other word I can think of).
I still live at home with my family (mum and 2 sisters). I've never been in a relationship, mainly because I'm too under confident with talking to new people, but partly because I have little desire to yet.
I've always said I'm 100% straight, and always believed that to be true... Until very recently. I met a girl through work, and I've never felt anything like it before - I just longed to 'be' with her, spend time with her and be close to her. I didn't really think about anything sexually.
I've always had 'crushes' on guys(like oh he's really attractive 
), and thought 'oh no, not girls, I'm straight' when it comes to girls. I'm realising now this may be due to my mother - growing up, she's always forced it down my throat that people are only ever straight or gay, anything else is greedy. She's also always says she's got nothing against lesbians, just the thought of being one makes her feel "physically sick" - so maybe that's always been ingrained in my mind, so I've never even let myself think about girls properly up to this point.
But going back to the girl at work, I don't look at her and think 'She's so attractive, I want to tap that' like I do with guys, I just look at her and feel happy and want to hold her close.
I don't know what all this means!!!!! 
Someone please reply!
xxx