Hi..I don't know why I'm writing this but I just need to vent!
I posted on here before and got some great advice and now I'm sitting here thinking why didn't I listen? Why did I ask for it and not take it? And that I only have myself to blame for the position I'm in 😫
Back story is I've been with my partner nearly 6 years, after being together 2 years we discovered I was pregnant, we planned to buy a house with the help of our parents, partner then suddenly decides when I'm 5 months pregnant and deposit had been put down on a house and everything was going through to quit his job, no talking to me beforehand no decision but his own. Once our little one was born it was decided I would move into his parents house until we were on our feet, partner returned to work once our baby was 4 months old.
We started planning to move out again saving away and paying off the debt that had accumulated whilst he was unemployed, got on our feet put an offer in on a place, he got 'fired' (im not sure of this) we pulled out again! He got another job it lasted 6 months was unemployed for 4 months, got another was employed a year got made redundant, was unemployed 6 months got another job it's lasted 2 1/2 months and his been sacked. The point of this is that I've now been at his parents 3 1/2 years! Whilst he is unemployed he does not help at all, he becomes moody mean and rude to me, constantly questioning me and moaning!
I planned on leaving before when I last posted but bottled it, I left for 3 days earlier this year but when I had to hand little one over to him I couldn't and came back! I've put myself in the most stupid position his in charge of everything finically owns the car ect! I feel as if I'm wasting my life, will this get any better? The only problem in our relationship is that he can't hold down a job and his attitude and mood/unhelpful ness when he is unemployed, I applied to got back into training for better prospects for myself and I haven't done this because I need to be in full time employment...I should leave shouldn't I? I'm wasting my life living in his childhood bedroom that we still share with our child 😫