To wish I'd settled?

[dancingqueen345]

I broke up with my 3 year partner recently, well 4 months ago now, just after we'd bought a house and started thinking about marriage and children. I really did love him but something just wasn't right (I've posted about this previously) and I knew in my heart of hearts I was settling. I've been told countless times since how brave I am and how happy I'll be in the future having made this decision, but right now I'm just not seeing it.

I'm having a shocking week at work and all I want to do is go home to him, know he'd pour me a glass of wine and sort tea out and listen to me moan.

It just feels like by not settling, by being so 'brave', I'm just making my life harder.

Sorry, this is such a self pity post but I do just feel like maybe the answer isn't always 'don't settle', maybe sometimes it's okay to settle.

Not sure I considered it settling at the time, but I do know I went for safe. Had the opportunity of a relationship with more chemistry and who I'm sure would have treated me how I wish I could be treated.
But it was complicated and I was scared to take a chance. Never know how it would have turned out but do regret it now and if I could turn back time I would be braver.

I settled now divorced but have amazing kids as a result so don't regret it. Would never do again I'd rather be alone