Hi Everyone,
This is my first time posting but I've looked in on useful stuff for my two DSs (3 and 10 months). I'm basically looking for advice- I've recently had a lot of huge shocks and I'm really struggling to cope. I feel anxious and down a lot of the time.
I live overseas with my lovely family- lovely DH and lovey DSs. The youngest recovered from a nearly-deadly sepsis infection just before Christmas, then we went overseas to be with my dad who was on his death bed (cancer). We were with him when he died and it went well (for such a terrible situation!). While I was still there my maternal grandfather died (we were close).
While where my Dad lives, my brother and sister were really horrible to me- basically bullying me because I didn't sort out their lives (didn't do legal things on their behalf, or organise Dad's stuff to be delivered to their houses in the UK).
A bit of background- I used to be v close to my very insecure, narcissistic and abusive mum and was her rock until I decided to slowly break free and become independent and not constantly at her service. Basically I realised while with Dad that my relationship with my siblings was an extension of my old relationship with Mum. So being politely responsible only for myself and my immediate family really resulted in a lot of abuse. And it was so hard to step away from my old role too!
At a time when I could really really do with support, I don't have any except from my husband who works a lot. Friends are ok but I'm really bad at asking for help. So- what do I do?! I am very sad and anxious and any advice or support would mean a lot to me.