Because I try so hard to be attracted to my husband and I can't.
Looks wise he's still the same, it's his extremely bad grammar, the way he goes on about the same point for such a long time when all he needed was one sentence to explain it, the way he pulls on his lip constantly, the way he procrastinates and you'd literally have to ask him for something 5 times before he will do it, the way he never looks at me when we're out instead looking at everyone else and telling me what they're buying or doing or saying. How no matter how many times I've told him my likes and dislikes he still buys me a generic bath set for my birthday.
on the other hand he does more than 50 percent of looking after our kids, does all the handyman stuff, let's me lie in, tells me I'm beautiful all the time, makes me a cup of tea in the morning, has never shouted at me, has never been mean to me.
I tried to make myself sleep with him today and after about half hour of sitting next to him i realised I cant, i havr a high sex drive and we usually have sex about three times a week but not for the last few months.
Why are all these petty little things bothering me so much? He's always been dopey but now I have children all this stuff really irritates me even though I try to ignore it.
He's much nicer to me than anyone else I've ever been with.
I feel so guilty.
I'm a complete bitch and he deserves better doesn't he,
I feel like i should leave and let him move on