I wrote a post earlier today about a strange situation I didn't understand. After many comments from you all I have worked out what it was all about.
My partner is a porn addict and masturbates more than we have ever had sex. I get rejected a lot and he will sneak off to pleasure himself in the night or very early hours.
He's also had two affairs/cheated on me. And has sent and received a stupid amount of messages and photos to other women.
The first affair/cheat was four years ago. I didn't find out about this till later on. The second affair was two years ago, with a girl who lived on our street. We moved house five months later and he got a new job then too. That's when he started working with this old crush. And when I found out about the first affair. Within a week or two the other man started staring at me and smiling at me. It made me feel nice again, and beautiful. Which is something I don't usually feel. I've had sever depression for a couple of years (since the second affair) This is what the problem was the whole time. Just me feeling nice again, my depression is lifted from my shoulders just for those few moments. But the crying is because I was/am so frustrated about the whole situation because I want that attention from my partner, not an old crush.
So I thank you all so, so much for helping me understand my confusion. You really have no idea how much this has helped.