Been with my other half 15 years. 2 children. We own a business together and I also work part time. We've not been happy for along time. Relationship can be toxic and nasty at times. No shared interests but we bob along and can have good times too. I know I need to end it. The thought of living like this for another 15 years and more makes me want to cry. But then I think of the business, our potential future, our plans and I just can't face the separation. I know it'll be so hard to separate and he won't make it easy. We separated a few years ago and he wore me down by basically not leaving me alone. I know I'd be happier but then I also think there are many aspects of my life where I'd be unhappy if we separate. I just can't make the leap. Tried counselling before, other half said it was a waste of time and we are fine as we are but I'm not. Anytime I try and broach the issue he dismisses my feelings and then gets snappy.and I end up wondering if there is anything wrong or if it's just me making problems from nothing.
Sorry I am not sure if this makes sense.