Arghh so I can’t take being in my shit marriage anymore. I have terrible depression and have been trying to get well but I think it’s my marriage causing it anyway.
I feel like I’m unable to work but also having take a year off and walked out my last two jobs, job agencies won’t touch me with a barge pole.
If I leave and get 50% of the house plus savings not subtracting divorce solicitors fees I’d probably get about £120k. The ave price of a flat in my area is £300k. Most are more but I reckon £300k would be ok. Thing is I just don’t feel well enough to work and would never get a mortgage without a job anyway.
I’m ranting because I’d just bore anyone in RL and I am sat on sofa crying as once more another year goes on and I’m feeling like shit again. I would literally walk out now with nothing if my dd wasn’t asleep upstairs. I’m sick to death of being near him.
So instead of doing the right thing I’ve transferred some money into a personal account from the joint account and gone round the house taking down wedding party pictures. And screamed into a pillow. Mature I know!! I don’t know what to do.
Two years ago I had an amazing job and a personality. I feel like he’s stolen my life from me. He’s worn me down to nothing. But I have no one in RL. And a young dd, so I’ve sat on my arse doing nothing. Just gliding along surviving. Going out with anyone who I can meet up with, pretending all is ok. Taking massive walks just to not be near him. I feel like I’m surviving. My life is just disappearing. But my friend who split with her bf told me single life is shit and she’s really struggling. I feel like I don’t want to struggle along like that and may as well watch my life from my sofa else I’ll be stuck on a different sofa broke. I know I need to make a decision but it seems so hard.