Would you all consider it rape if I wasn't consenting initially for a long period but later just went with having sex with him? That's why I'm scared to call it rape because I did my part the latter half.
With my previous thread saying all that, I'm scared to leave. I do love him and this is my first marriage and I haven't had many boyfriends. He does a lot of nice and sweet things but does all those terrible things on top of that.
We only got married in 2016, to make things harder, I'm a foreign citizen and only living and working because of this marriage. Please don't think I got into this marriage only because of that. I was going to school in CA as an international student prior to all this and had relatives in the mainland. Only had to pause school when my father withdrew his support because he was leaving us for someone half his age and took our lucrative family business.
Anyway, when my husband has fought with me many times and goes through his temper tantrums (sometimes over his frustration over video games) mind you, I am not doing anything and I am just around. In addition, to cheating, he gets verbal when he's mad. I know people say bad things when they're mad, but it has got me completely beat even though he apologizes in days later after he sees me weak from stress of not eating sleeping. I get so affected. Im not really sure why. is it because I care so much? I know I do so much for him and yet I don't understand why he does all this?
When he is in his mad fiasco, he would even use the threat of divorcing me immediately so I would be sent back to my country, where I don't have much left bc of my dad. I remember telling him, that if he really wanted to marry me, he would know all this. Because when I got married to him, I lost my student and tourist visa in the US to get a conditional resident card. Like he not only is playing with my emotion, heart and mind but my very life.
sigh. I don't have family where were living at because he's in the military