I say 'ex' as we only dated for about half a year, but was very intense. When we first met, I really wasn't looking for or interested in a meaningful relationship, but ended up falling for him hard. He broke things off and I was devastated.
He turned up in my city just over half a year later wanting to meet up, but I decided nothing could be gained from it and told him I didn't want to, only for us to bump into each other at a random night out (fully suspect it wasn't a coincidence, even though he maintained that it was). Nothing happened, but it was an awkward encounter that dredged up a lot of shit feelings from the past.
Since then, we've messaged each other a few times off the cuff. He's now back in town and wants to meet up. I haven't responded to his message yet. I would be a fool to agree, but there's a part of me that really wants to see him, and it's like I'm watching a horror movie where everyone is screaming, don't go there, and the character does exactly what they shouldn't.
FWIW, my love life has been pretty much non-existent since he broke things off (completely unlike me!!), and there's a part of me that is clearly still hung up on him. So, I guess I know that IWBU to agree to meeting up, but I need a bit of handholding and reassurance. MNers, please give me strength and save me from myself!