I've been really sad for so long.
My exP cheated on me, and lied to me about it for a long time. I was pregnant. We broke up anyway but live together with our young daughter.
My ex is abusive and mean. He is bitter, nasty, manipulative and knows exactly how to hurt me. He called me a fucking disgrace and a cunt this evening while I held our 12 month old daughter in my arms...because I hadn't vacuumed. Even though we were both out all day at work.
He complains because he doesn't get sex from me. Aside from the fact that he is not my partner, he also knows I had a very traumatic birth and have some not insignificant problems- anatomically speaking- as a result. But he thinks I owe it to him.
It all came to a head tonight and I finally came out from under his spell. I have been so in love with him for so long, so under his control.
But. I am 35 years old and a single mother. I really need someone to tell me firstly that getting rid of him is the right thing and secondly that it's not too late for me to find someone who will genuinely make me happy. I am so sad.