My ex husband and I separated 15 months ago due to his emotionally abusive behaviour. He works out of the country most of the year so I have stayed on in the marital home with our children. I have my name down for a council house but god knows how long that will take. I have tried to find private rent but I have only been self employed for a year and most agencies won't accept this and I don't have a guarantor. I am trying to stay local as I don't want to move the children out of their school but i realise this may have to change.
I started dating someone I used to go to school with 3 months ago. He has been lovely, it was nice to feel loved again. But I just feel under so much pressure. I have ended things with him tonight as I feel totally overwhelmed by everything.
My parents are very unsupportive of my separation as my stbxh is a high earner. Doesn't seem to matter that he spoke to me like a piece of shit all the time. They think I'm mad for giving up financial security. But I have no security as he is useless with money and very secretive with it. I was told by him i was taking the piss because i asked him to help out financially at Christmas. He earns £300 a day.
My boyfriend knew about the situation I was in but has became increasing annoyed by it. Tonight I was accused of enjoying the situation I'm in. I fucking hate it. I dread my ex husband coming home and the atmosphere it causes for the children. But I feel so bad for ending things tonight. I don't really know why I'm writing all this. I just feel so lost and confused and wonder if I'll ever get out of this mess. My grandmother died on new years day and my family have fallen out with me because my ex husband won't be there and can t understand why I don't want his support. I don't need his support and he had never even met my grandmother.