My DP and I live together and expecting my first child (he has children from previous marriage) since pregnancy my depression has gotten out of hand and I genuinely find no pleasure in anything. It's like I'm just existing rather than living. I don't have any energy, I don't want to watch tv or read or go out or engage in conversation. This has had an impact on my relationships with my DP's children. I can't play with them or really engage in conversation with them. I really am struggling with every day tasks. My DP is great but I think he's starting to resent me and notice that I'm not really taking part in "family time" he's been very understanding with my lack of personality at the moment and hasn't moaned once about anything. I think I'm upsetting him but as much as I try to be myself, I just can't. I feel like I've got no identity. I've literally sat here all day and probably said about 10 words.
I'm having counselling but I haven't been for 2 weeks as she's away. I think I need medication but I'm worried it will harm my baby (due any week). I feel like I've failed everyone. People don't look at me the same anymore and I think I'm losing my family and my DP to this. Just wanted to vent really x