A little over a year ago, a friend of a friend handed me a drink they claimed they bought me from the bar, in reality they swiped it from someone in the toilets (yes they are no longer acquaintances!) The drink was chock full of amphetamines. Since then I have suffered, really suffered. I developed daily panic attacks, a generalised anxiety disorder and depersonalisation. I have irrational phobias about drugs being put in my food and drink and a larger phobia of inhaling other people's marijuana smoke (I say larger because of the crippling panic reaction I have to smelling it if I go into the city centre and how I often avoid going out at all in case I do). I've tried CBT and absolutely cannot afford private therapy. I haven't touched alcohol or any drugs (including prescription and caffeine) since this happened due to fear. My life is so small this was my day today and every day in December: I try to eat and drink, watch some television, panic attack, watch some television, try to eat and drink, panic attack, anxiety, sleep, repeat. I can't socialize because I worry about accidentally getting high - what if someone is smoking marijuana and I walk past them in the street? What if I sit on the bus and someone who carried drugs also sat on the seat? It goes on, and on. I just think my brain broken and I don't think I can be fixed.