She took an overdose on new years day and is currently in hospital. I come from a tightknit friend group. Our relationship has always been very best friends/worst enemies. We fell out this time as I felt she used me for money/lifts/babysitting and if she had nobody else. But I guess it's because she wasn't right in herself. There has been times when she's fine and a wonderful friend and she tends to shun people when she's feeling low I've never noticed before. She's always said she wished she didn't have her son and I judged her for that, I tried to help the best I could but she was more interested in boys and partying but surely that's a sign there's something wrong. I'm sure I've hurt her too but genuinely I don't know how. We have bitched about each other between friends and I think that has made things worse. I want to tell her I'm so sorry she's feeling so low and that no matter what's happened between us I'll always love her and care for her and be there for her. But I think I've let her down and I think she will too. Sorry this has been a ramble more than anything but I don't know what to do.