Struggling with NC

[mytragiclife]

25 weeks pregnant, ex has been awful to me. Coming back and forth saying he wants to be together and then not over and over. (This amongst some really dreadful things he's done- cheating, name calling, general abuse and harassment.. the list goes on)

But I still love him so much and just feel like begging him to come back to me all the time. I am furious at myself as always thought I was a strong person but I just can't get over him.

He's still meant to be having contact with the baby once born which I'm fine with and I wouldn't stop him just because he doesn't want me (despite the fact he is a shithead to me I think (hope) he'll step up to the mark as a dad)

I'm just struggling to go NC with him (unless it's baby related ofc) he's been with lots of people since we split and it breaks my heart. I feel like I should be 100% focused on the baby but I'm so torn up about him.

How the fuck do I stop being such a miserable heartbroken bitch over him and just get on with my life and stop thinking about him every second of every day. Feeling so so so pathetic

Firstly, you are not pathetic. You’re in love and carrying his child. Stop being so harsh on yourself!

How long have you been split up for? It’s easier said than done not to think about him 24/7 especially when you cannot have a clean break.

When I split up from my ex, I beat myself up everyday for not being over him. I eventually realised I had to accept it and that it was okay to think about him 24/7 because I won’t always feel that way. It was just a process I had to go through. Things got easier after that but it was still a long, sad road!