Been reading and lurking for ages, I just need some advice and support from those who have walked away who have been brave enough to do it? How? when? how do you find the strength to do it?
It's on my mind day-in-day-out and has been for the last 2 years, it's driving me literally mad living under stress, I'm sick all the time, it's just so low level and it's killing me thinking about hurting my boys (11) & (15)
I'm done, no return, I simply feel nothing, zero, not a thing for my husband, I fall into that category of there is nothing "wrong" with him, lovely kind.. But it's like living with my annoying boring brother and I simply don't find him attractive at all.
The last 2 weeks at home in the same house, I've had to keep going out to walk to get away, I feel like a caged animal and keep welling up knowing I have to do this, but I can't work out when or how?
Every time I think that's it, something crops up, like Christmas, birthdays events I can't seem to cancel and now I've got myself well and truly stuck.
I just need some stories some support, how on earth did you do it and make that first step?