How would you feel?

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Split up with exh 3 yrs ago - but about 5 yrs ago I became pregnant which wasn't planned, I booked in for a termination due to trying to be responsible, we couldn't afford it DD was small plus numerous other things and the fact that exh said he didn't want anymore kids.
He drove me there while I went through it and never said a word, not on the way back either. It was never mentioned again. Maybe I regretted it?

We split up and he meets someone else - ok that's fine then within 6 months he announces his new gf is pregnant and its due on the week of my birthday!!!

He was never really a hands on Dad, I did everything - now hes acting like hes father of the year - makes me laugh!!

Would you be pissed off?? Would you think 'what if'??
It grates me and I cant shake it - help me with this please tell me I'm stupid and whats done is done..

I don't have any advice as not been in a similar situation or anything but I notice nobody has replied yet and I didn't want you to feel stupid, or alone, or like you're the only person in the world this has happened to, because I bet there are other ladies here who have similar experiences.

I think you're perfectly entitled to feel angry, upset, resentful, confused...you're certainly not stupid and clearly have some painful memories re: the termination and him leaving you to care for your child effectively alone. Have you ever tried counselling? It might be helpful to find a safe place to explore your feelings in more depth.

you aren't stupid at all

I agree with everything Meadow said but i would also sit down this evening and be thankful you aren't with him any more - because he's a prize twat who treated you and your daughter badly and will probably do the same to the new gf too

I get you but it still stands - you had DD and you couldn't afford it. You made a decision based on your circumstances at the time.

Neither of you could have predicted where you would be now.

Thanks, I did go to counselling a couple of times but it was so expensive and didn't really help.
Ive been on anti Ds for 6 months which have helped. I just feel he was such a narcissist throughout the 15 yrs we were together and I let him!!