How do I do this?

[TeddyIsaHe]

I have an 11 month old Dd.

Her father has broken me. For the last 2 years he has convinced me I am useless and worthless and nothing. I have believed him. I don’t have a lot of contact with my family, and I desperately wanted a family for my Dd, so I believed everything he said.

On the night before Christmas Eve we had a minor argument (I asked him to help me get Dd back to sleep and he refused) I asked him to leave my home and said I’d see him tomorrow (Christmas Eve).

He didn’t speak to me. He blocked me on every channel and refused to talk to me.

It was our dd’s first Christmas and he refused to be here. We’d been planning it for 3 months. I’d spent money I don’t have. I was hoping it would be lovely for Dd even though she has no idea. He told me it was all my fault because I dared to question him.

How do I get away from him? When’s hes my dd’s Father?

None of this is your fault .
Sadly you are trying to make a family unit with a vile man who abuses and belittles you. He has no apparent commitment to you or your child.
If you really want to get away from him change the locks if he has a key.
Do not contact him and block him on phone and social media.
Because of your partners behaviour do not make any voluntary arrangements for him to see your DD.
If he wants to see your child then he can start the legal process to do so and visit her within a legal framework.
Takke advice from Womens Aid, a solicitor or Citizens Advice.
If he does not pay child maintenance I suggest you make an application with out delay.
You are not useless and worthless far from it. You have your DD who you provide for, you have a home and can make a good life for the two of you. Maybe you could make contact with your family and build some bridges.
2018 is just around the corner, make a fresh start.
All the very best to you.