Regret

[Farontothemaddingcrowd]

I'm aware that I sound quite mad, but I decided I wanted to date another woman. I enjoyed the date and ended up staying at hers. But I think we both felt weird the morning after and I now know that I only want to date men. It just doesn't feel right. I feel weirdly regretful and ashamed though, now.
I feel ashamed of myself

Don't feel ashamed , you tried it, didn't like it and that's that! You wouldn't feel regret if the thing you tried was food and you didn't like it, or ice skating !

I guess so. Just feel like it was a bit of a mad thing to do. I'm glad I know now.

No need to feel ashamed. You tried something you thought you might like but it turns out you didn’t. It happens. Now you know. You’ve hurt nobody and done nothing wrong.

I feel a bit out of control and like any men I meet in the future might judge me. I am worried that it means my mental state isn't right or something. Though that's probably a bit of the fear as I was drinking last night.
I still think about my emotionally abusive ex boyfriend every day. We split a year ago.

Men you meet aren’t going to know unless you tell them so why would they judge you? Don’t worry about your mental state over this, it really is nothing. You just tried something that sounded fun but it wasn’t as good as you thought it would be. Not a big deal.

Still thinking about the EA ex is a problem though. Maybe think about some counselling?

Thank you. I think I'd struggle with time/money with counselling. But I'm glad you all think it is nothing to worry about. She hasn't messaged me today either so I guess she felt a bit weird. So there's a bit of rejection there too, which is silly.

Just think of it that maybe she picked up on your rejection and is responding accordingly rather than that she’s rejecting you.

I realised I don't like Galaxy chocolate.
Only Cadbury.
Wouldn't have known if I hasn't tried it though!!
Stop worrying.

That's a good way to look at it.

Tinsel, justcthink yourself lucky you didn’t try Hershey’s chocolate- it tastes like feet! 😂😂

Oh my god, I love Hersheys ( and women) just a thought that may explain her reaction.... it is really, really hard being a straight girls 'experiment' - especially when the morning after its clear she's having a touch of embarassed regret (says the voice of experience here). Be gentle with yourself AND her. You tried it, you decided its not for you and that's cool. Just spare a thought for her who in all probability has been here before. Its not a great feeling. It really isnt for you both

She messaged today and I'm not 100% certain of my feelings now. Maybe I felt she had rejected me, which is why I felt ashamed?

Far - you are sounding quite confused about it all. In your first post you are adamant that you only want to date men, I think the ex is playing on your mind too much for you to be making decisions if you are straight or bi, It's not fair to bring someone else into it.