To all those who have been there, and are still going through it - I'm hoping perhaps someone has an answer...
When you've survived an abusive relationship, how do you ever trust again? How do you lose the fear? How do you stop searching for the hidden meaning behind his words in case you have to defend yourself later. How do you stop yourself from flinching when he moves his hand towards you. How do you ever completely relax in anyone's company? How do you stop analyzing everything he says searching for the betrayal in his words. How do you stop yourself feeling like a useless piece of shit when you do something wrong, and are scared of how he might react.
Is it possible to have a 'normal' relationship after, and not fuck it up because you're so damaged that you don't know how to act 'normal' any more. If anyone has managed this, how did you do it?