Hi all
Just looking for a place to talk about this really. I’m married with two pre schoolers. Husband is lovely, hard working and kind and thoughtful but not very good at expressing his feelings.
I’ve got a chronic illness of some kind- have rheumatoid arthritis but being investigated for fibromyalgia as I have a lot of odd symptoms. Has been gradually getting worse for some years.
That said I lead a normal enough life, work part time in a demanding career- same career DH works in- and look after kids. I just need a bit more rest than DH. On a lot of painkillers and other drugs.
Feel pretty useless in general and get very tired but husband and I have just had a row and he’s acting exhasaperated that I’m having a flare up. Feel very ill today. Stomach problems, bad headache, in bed and he’s just bemoaned that it’s the school holidays and we’re having “two weeks of this”. I got very upset.
He’s a good man and he didn’t mean it like it came out but I’m really upset. Don’t really know how to express to him why I’m so upset. I just feel useless as a person when I’m like this- I can barely drag myself around the house. I know it’s frustrating for him but I’m in constant pain and I just feel so sad today that it’s ruining all our lives.