Divorced WN, second Xmas free but just soooo sad today - what's wrong with me?

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Am so glad I'm free, never going back, i initiated it (5 years too late, but still...) but I feel so down at the mo, that my life wasn't supposed to be like this... any ideas? Am I bonkers??
I'm just so fucking resentful that I have to share my DC over the Xmas hols with the abusive wanker - strategies, please, you smart people! Or even just a handhold if you've had to do this too. Or even just sympathy, right now!
Thank you - I'm feeling like I'm about to unravel ☹️

Handhold forthwith

First off, well done for leaving an abuser. That takes courage and you did it. Bravo!

Not sure what you mean about 'am I bonkers?' Ime I went through a lot of grief after the end of my marriage to an abusive knob . Yes I was glad to be free but it was all sad, yknow? How great it would have been if it worked out...

btw what does WN mean ..

Handhold and from me! I'm going through exactly the same thing. Having DC for Xmas and Boxing Day then ex has them through til NY's. 27th - 31st December I'm dreading - will miss DC and all my friends will be doing stuff with their DH/DC. Have a few things planned but going to be hard seeing all the families with their DC out having fun when I'm all alone.
Sorry can't help much OP! totally understand your resentment. And yes, good on you for leaving an abusive relationship. Take it easy on yourself.

I found the 2nd xmas harder than my first alone. I think you gear up for your first, single xmas, get through it better than you expected to, but then put no effort into stealing yourself for the 2nd and it all comes tumbling down...

Be kind towards you and treat you x

bluedog thank you, I think you might be right.
Springydaff it's for Wank Narc, a term coined by some other mumsnetter on a thread we had going last year. The thread kept me alive at the time I was really going through it.