Damn - Now look at the state of me

[BraveOnTheOutside]

Put DC's to bed and decided to spring clean kitchen after DH's departure a few weeks ago. When through cupboards slinging out the food that we kept but only he ate. Got to the fridge and found an unopened jar of lemon slices from Christmas at the back. Decided to have a gin and tonic with a ice and lemon ... Made it weak - so I didn't get sloshed

Really getting into my cupboard cleaning and rearranging/slinging out and standing back regularly to admire my handwork and having a little drink after each shelf was completed

3 large tumblers later, abandoned kitchen 3/4 done. Now pitiful and weepy over keyboard. Head thumping and mouth dry

damn damn damn how did this happen. Not going to ring him but am very pathetic state at the moment.

Oh dear, come on, chat away, have you rl friends and relatives supporting you?

(((hugs)))
I would advise hiding the phone now before you change your mind

oh you poor thing. have a few (big) glasses of water, take 2 paracetomol and go to bed. things will seem less awful in the morning i hope.

I have got myself a black coffee and one of my favourite Bendicks mints. This is the first time I think I've let go and allowed myself to feel the pain since he left.

be kind to yourself. tomorrow is another day and all that. have another mint and chuck me one please....

will not be using phone - honest. I have to tread very carefully with him or I don't get any money. Saying that I've had less than half of the 20% net salary he should give me when we're finally divorced in the first 3 weeks of being alone and even that doesn't arrive in my a/c until Monday.

Ringing him and venting would be a very bad idea

Don't be too hard on yourself. Your typing is immaculate so you can't be as bad as you're making yourself feel. Maybe just needed a good cry to get things out of your system? Go to bed. Feel better tomorrow, I hope.

Going to bed now (another room to be tackled, but not this weekend). Typing is good because I am double double checking it before I post.

Really needed that cry - can't do it all day (at work) or evening (children around) ...

thanks for listening

Night night Brave, come back tomorrow to let us know how you are.

How are you today Brave?

oh it makes you fel good de clutering doesn't it. I do ir regular it is supposed to release energy.

I do not know your full story but know you are alsone so if ewant to chat just email me.

Hpe u are okay too

just checking I'm not doing a ucm

Feeling very sheepish about getting weepy and self pitiful last night - not to mention a little drunk on 3 long weak gins.

But whilst cooking Sunday lunch I finished the kitchen and it looks clean and organised. I even cleaned out the fish tank!

So many feelings running around my brain I seem to be doing lots of displacement activities rather than responding to a very vindictive and spiteful divorce petition.

MN is my sanctuary at the moment, I read lots and post every day just not under this name.

Now I know why it's called Mother's Ruin.

Glad you feel better, and at least you didn't phone the X thats always been my problem
Things do always feel better in the morning and MN is a greta pleace to rant if they don't