I feel like every time I try to have a proper conversation with dh about anything I end up upset and frustrated.
Christmas can be a bit hard for me, and I felt like I didn't really enjoy it last year very much. I've been really trying this year but dh keeps insisting we all go to these expensive and a lot of the time really unsuitable - like seeing the lights switched on in the city centre which was an hour away and the kids were too small to see anything anyway and then DH put our 3 year old on his shoulders and got into an argument with the people behind us. He keeps wanting us to all sit and watch Christmas films as a family which is nice in theory but the children are only little and get bored and want to wander off and play and he shouts at them and then I try to stick up for them and he shouts at me, and then blames us all for ruining Christmas.
I don't even know why I'm posting. I feel very alone yet pressured to be perfect.