To start with context: I am over 40 and have only had one successful relationship in my life. And that was about twenty years ago! So I really feel out of my depth here.
There's this man at work. We seem to get on well, although things are always so busy that we talk in brief snatches, and often in groups. When I'm with him I can usually be quite rational, although there are times when my insides jump at the sight of him. Then as soon as I'm by myself, my mind goes into overdrive, replaying the tiniest encounters over and over to extract meaning from them! These two reactions to him: one when I'm with him and one when I'm not don't seem to match. Is it just hormones latching on to the only single man in the vicinity? I am trying to talk myself out of the possibility of having any real feelings for him and I'm not sure why I'm doing that. I've joined a dating site to distract me - what's that about?
Oh, and he's asked me to a social with a group from work. Which I am really looking forward to. I think. I'm also really nervous about it!
I don't remember ever getting so knotted up about someone before!