I am genuinely and completely happy in my life. Many people don't understand that, which I get because my life is not what you would call a Cinderella Story.
I am severely disabled, bed-bound at the moment and have been for just over a year. I have not long been released from a hospital stay where I was fighting septicemia and septic shock. Health wise, I have been unlucky, I have a compromised immune syndrome, as well as a neurological condition that means I have been wheelchair bound for six years. I am also in chronic pain.
Despite all of that, I am content and happy. I class myself as blessed, I have a fantastic and genuinely loving husband, who cares for me with love, sensitivity and humour. He had to give up work to be my full time carer, so we are together pretty much 24/7, yet we seldom argue, we laugh together and we are genuinely in love with each other. We have been through so much in the fifteen years we have been together and it has made us closer and so much stronger.
We have two beautiful children who have their moments but are genuinely great kids, they are compassionate, full of empathy, funny and cool human beings. They are mature beyond their years and we are so very proud of them.
My husband is kind, loving, funny, sweet and my best friend. We are not controlling of each other, or of our money nor do we need to justify our expenditure on a daily basis. We trust each other.
Yes, it is possible to be happy all of the time. I have moments of sadness, but none are related to my dh or my marriage. They are regret over my body failing me.
You and your dc deserve so much more! You have a lovely family who will willingly protect you from your monster husband. Please run to them! Or call womans aid, escape and complete the freedom program. Teach your dc that they don't have to live like this!