Hi I’m back here looking for support again. even just someone to talk to I posted on here on the 8 June and also the 30 July 2016. The support and advice I got was very kind alas I did not take the advice again that I should of. I gave my partner a second chance after he stopped using the net and made an effort or convince me he was sorry and would never do it again. My life has been very hard since. I go every where with him when I can and have never trusted him since. He has for a while started to go to work an hour earlier than normal it takes half an hour to get to work he says it’s becouse the parking is bad before that it was he was giving a work colleague a lift sharing costs.i believe it’s becouse he uses his phone when he gets there . Every time his phone rings I’m suspicious it constantly goes off either message or email. He keeps a password on it his thumbprint I ask why he does that in the house he says it’s I. Case it gets stolen outside .my self esteem has basically left me I feel I can’t compete against these women he paid and used even though he tells me there’s nothing wrong with me I can’t undress in front of him I feel that I’m not good enough I feel inferia and very low but what bothers me naw and has for months is .is he using me he has never paid anything towards the bills rent ect since he came here so he lives free I cook clean and wash for him as well as his other needs . I have seen his bank statement he has saved a few thousand pounds up and got bonds ect he was in debt when he came to me and had not a penny.he was able to pay a large sum off his car and the rest monthly and now I see he has given his daughter a large sum to buy a car and is regularly given her three hundred ect every other few months he gave her five hundred for xmas and I also believe he is still deceiving me and lying to me I buy shopping he buys very little except spends on himself .im so in pain I know what I should do but I just can’t if I ask or bring up what he done and how he has treated me he shouts I don’t want to hear it that was then it’s gone he gets angry as if I. The one to blame for it all I don’t know why I can’t tell him to go .his family like me his mam likes me .his mam says our blah loves you he told me he does but I think he lies to her to .i feel nothing like a woman anymore I just feel I have no strength left anymore I know only I can change it .why can’t I do the right thing like I was advised I really feel down believing he is using me and just tells me he loves me and says there’s only me until he has saved enough up to leave in the night .he says he doesn’t want to be a poor pensioner and wants to live abroad and he says he wants me and him to move abroad for our retirement that’s what he says OUR . Is it me am being paranoid or am I right to have this doubt about him .