I think I'm just putting up with my partner until things are easier with our 17 month old. He does my head in on a daily basis with his loud, obnoxious behaviour and he upset my 5 year old (his step daughter) last week again, which I posted a bout some months ago. He did improve his behaviour for a while and our relationship improved briefly but I now feel that if I wasn't so exhausted and in need of his help that I would not be with him. He does do a lot around the house, he cooks often and he adores the kids BUT he behaves like a spoilt child himself half the time and it's pissing me off no end. He is rude and bad tempered, talks down to me, won't be told when he's wrong, over reacts all the time, jumps down my throat if I question anything he says or does and I always worry what kind of mood he's going to in when he gets home. I don't think he's abusive as such, as I've dealt with that previously, but he doesn't exactly make me feel good or happy. I think he is simply an obnoxious person who likes the sound of his own voice far too much. He thinks he's amazing at everything he does but in reality he is not. I think he's got a serious case of short man syndrome (he's 5'5 - my height).
Things were much better before we had our 17 month old but it has been a very tough time since, she has allergies, doesn't sleep well, I was quite ill after having her for over a month. We are both besotted with her but I think he resents me now as I don't have enough energy for a sexual relationship, barely have enough energy to do the basics around the house (it's a tip) and on top of all that I'm still breastfeeding. I really want to stop now as its draining me but I feel unable to as she is such hard work anyway. I feel like my mental and physical health is suffering and I'm constantly thinking about how different things could have been if had done or not done such and such a thing. I seem to always make the wrong decision and I don't know what to do anymore. 