Being vague about some details as I know DH reads here sometimes.
DH is a nasty drunk. I've given ultimatums and ultimatums because it's just not right. Since February he's been drunk twice a week and abusive and spiteful. Not violent, but aggressive and posturing.
I haven't seen or spoken to him since August (he lives part of the year in another country). I told him not to come back unless he stopped drinking. He said he would while he's with me, but I don't believe him and it's not enough.
Every week I'll get a message saying he's sorry, to which I'll reply that I don't trust him still. Sorry is not enough, I want him to recognise he's a spiteful drunk. It's not "a few drinks" and it's not "I got a bit tipsy".
After a few emails he'll get nasty and tell me to fuck off, I'm a bitch and he's sick of me anyway. Then he'll email me again. I don't answer now.
I don't know why I'm posting. I don't know what advice I want. My DS aren't his, and my property is mine alone. Divorce will be easy.
I just feel sad, and I have stomach anxiety every morning. When I don't think about him (and to be truthful it's less and less now), I am fine.
My situation is so easy compared to a lot of other MNers, but I'm so sad.
Every time I've got angry before he has let me down. He really thinks he's tried hard and that he's done all he can to fix things. In his mind he really has.
I'm lucky. There's nobody to call me a fat lazy ugly bitch anymore in front of my children. However my stomach is still churning and I feel so down.