The divorce proceedings are all my fault

[EasyToEatTiger]

So I have been told this morning. My husband broke a glass last night and left bits of glass all over the floor so I told him to clear them up. He told me to do it myself and I said I was sick of tidying up after him. He told me he was the victim and everything was my fault. Now he has stormed out. He didn't explode into vitriol, but it was there. He said how much he hated me being in the house and how he wished I would leave.

He has already served divorce papers on me. He had to be in control. It is absolutely without question that all this is affecting my dds. He won't move out although it would be so much easier if he did. He has stated that he would prefer to live alone. It is very very hard to find rented accommodation with the amount of animals I keep. Believe me, I have been phoning round. I have been looking. I am getting my ducks in a row. Today I see my solicitor and tomorrow we start mediation. He is foot-dragging and blames me absolutely for him wanting to divorce me. There is no point in saying anything to him as he will mirror me. That's what he does.

My MP is useless. His PA tells me it is a legal matter. Domestic Abuse and Sexual Assault is a political matter. The resources they are throwing at investigating the sexual picadillos of our MPs is extraordinary. They plan to get them if they can. With ordinary people, behind closed doors, it is not the same. This is not the fault of the police, but a problem with the CPS.
My MP seems to have vanished.

You come across as being quite overwhelmed and disjointed. Would it be worth going to see your GP and asking for ways to calm down, so you can properly assess the situation.

My gp has me on all sorts of drugs. I'm sorry I sound overwhelmed and cofused. There is a lot to take on board. Good meeting with solicitor. I cannot communicate with my husband so everything is taking too long. At least I now know what I can and can't do. So at least I can get on with getting the house on the market.

Mediation session today. I know it's not usually recommended where there is domestic abuse. There are reasons for going through it and sanctions in the background. I spoke to my lovely WA advisor today and discussed it.
I think it is important that the children are not denied access to one or other parent. My husband abandoned his first family lock stock and barrel. It is not my business but I have enduring the same as the first. I think this is why the first children do not want to know their father.

I am starting the Freedom Programme again soon. I am so pleased and excited. I started it before and recognise how it can help. At the time I forgave my husband so didn't carry on. Now I want to do it.

You would think on the surface that my husband was normal. I thought he was normal at the beginning and I shoved under the carpet all my doubts. They re-surfaced and re-surfaced again and again and again. That carpet is up to the ceiling now. I am going through the many many ways he behaved sexually towards me. The way I tried to please him. I bent over backwards to please him at cost to me.
I told him several times that his behaviour frightened me.