I guess this post is just about trying to see it in black and white.
I have been seeing a guy for about 3 months now. He’s currently gone awol having made firm plans for this weekend.
I suspect he’s been arrested. I know for many that is an instant dealbreaker but here’s the thing.
Since my marriage ended I have dated a few guys. I met him on a swinging site having not been looking for a full on relationship. We clicked massively. I would never have met someone like him in daily life for a number of reasons.
He has a dodgy past and I know that I should just forget and move on.
But I can’t. When we are together, I have never known chemistry like it. He makes me feel myself in a way no one else ever has. I can’t even begin to articulate how good I feel when I’m when we are together.
But I know this is going to keep happening.
I am at a point where I don’t even want to look at another man. I have no means of finding out where he is and it’s driving me crazy.
Fuck, it would have been easier never to have met him...
I know I need to let it go but why is it so hard?
Can you please all tell me to get a grip. I know it’s just crazy sex hormones but where the hell do I find that level of satisfaction anywhere else?