Hi, I'm on the brink of initiating a separation from my husband. I've gone over it so many times in my head, and although it feels like I'm about to jump of a cliff, I can't help but feel it's the right thing in the long run. (We're emotionally separated for about a year, no sex for 4 years, emotionally abusive to a degree).
But one of the things that's holding me back is a fear of being alone for the rest of my life. I can't bear the thought of OLD, and assume that single guys will either be divorced for good reason or single for good reason. I like my own company, to a certain point, but one of my reasons to leave is that I'm not ready to give up on affection and intimacy at 40 years old (I feel 30)! Which is what is I'll be doing if I stay in this marriage.
But, we're getting along 'ok' at the moment day to day, e.g having dinner together some evenings, enjoying a glass of wine, but purely platonic.
I'm scared of being on my own for the rest of my life!
Did others feel like this too? Has it worked out okay?