More of a hand hold really. .probably really silly but I am just upset all day. My bf of four years usually we get on very well. Both divorced a long time from others. We neither of us want more kids as we're too old. Both have own homes. He asked me to move into his and I did . He told me he was happy but we just had a trivial argument over me being a bit down yesterday and he said he was looking forward to me being away this week. What brought me down was just a bad work day.He said he doesn't want to go on holiday with me unless I cheer up and he needs a break from me from his house. Then he apologised and wanted me to forget he said it. Later in the day I said I will give you some space as we are both tense and so I booked to go away earlier and he then said he's mad because last week when he told me he doesn't believe in marriage , I told him if I met the right girl he might change his mind and I promised I would never discuss marriage with him. I have not brought it up as he calls it the M word. I told him I do believe some marriages are good . We have chatted a little by phone, just small talk. The problem is he hasn't asked me to go back to his house where we've been living. He's rang and told me he's very tired from work. I can't help feeling like I have messed up but then a work friend has said to let him have his space. I am trying to relax but I can't stop thinking about it all.