In the last year, my partner and I have both had health scares with terminal illnesses. We are both fine. I have Borderline personality disorder. I have struggled socially my whole life. Having to think about how I act, speak etc. My partner is very good at making friends with no problems. Both my dad and brother have said I should be tested. I had a lot of difficulty with my son, it took until yr3 for him to have friends and now he has a good social life. I have 2 best friends, who I have been close to for years. I am semi close to my sister in law. One of my best friends may be moving to Spain in the next year. My sister in law would like to move away as well. I feel like I missed an opportunity to be close to sister in law. She has become good friends with a mum from the school. They regularly go out together with kids and a couple of other mums from school. A mum in my son's class invited my son on holiday which was good, but she seems close to another mum in the class. I feel like I am losing my friends and have no social group/ life. Thinking my partner may die, really scared me. I am so depressed and lonely. I feel in constant battle with my head. I am not close to siblings etc like others are. Feel like I have battled to get this far and it's not enough. Other people seem to make friends so easily. Feel I've left it too late. I invited my Aunt down a couple of weeks ago, I get on well with her. So will make that a regular thing. Sorry, just would like some advice. Thanks