someone please help me I'm really stressed my ex husband well we're still ride but seperated as he was angry and violent towards me so I left him. we have two kid together. he' keeps stringing me along telling me he loves me one min nd them abusing me the next. I'm really stupid but I keep falling for it like he's got me trapped in some box that I'm truggling to get out of. he's drilled his elf into my head and it's as if he cots my mod at some points when I'm thinking to myself I'm a waste of space and worthless and no one else will want me becasue I've heard this from him for so long.
He's now threatening to take my kids away from me and he's saying he will divorce me but he's making it out as if I'm Harrassing him if I call him.....which I'm not. But if someone tells u one min they love u and jump into bed with u.....manipulate u to jump into bed with them and then tell them u want nothing to do with them.....obviously I have questions I need answered as to why he's used me.....but still I don't call him stupidly and whenever we do talk I ask him and to avoid it he says stop Harrassing me I will report u. I don't know what to do.....he's been violent and I've taken it and not reported it out of fear nd stupidity I guess thinking he will.chamge and I shouldn't do this to him....but instead now he's taking advantage of my kindness and niaevity and making it out is if I'm violent and Harrassing him. He tries to get me angry and wind me up to say things and he records me.and then tells me he will.use it against me....he tries to say I'm bipolar.and mental...
Which I'm not......I just don't know what to do. U take so much crap from man and then in the end this is what he does. He's trying to make me out to be a mess and that I blackmail him.that if he leaves me I won't let him see the kids when he sees kids whenever he wants and I've never stopped him. It's just like he's trying to make me out to be so.thing I'm not and I'm. Scared that becasue I never reported he's abuse he will actually come out looking like the one in the right with he's false allegations.
I'm so stressed it's really hard for me I feel like I will have a anxiety attack...I feel used and dirty and like is this all in good for just for someone to use in bed and then that's it.......or when I'm slaving around for him and he's family.......I'm mother of he's children.......why can't he see that and stop torturing me?
Please.someome help me and tell me what I should do