Im getting a bit worried about myself and i cant tell if my relationship is a contributing factor or not, guess im just asking for opinions.
Been with my dp for just over a year, i freely admit to having a few lost toys in the attic prior to that and have been in therapy for a while now, which does help enormously. Our relationship is definitely a bit difficult, he is moody and nit-picky and jealous at times, we have both worked hard in counselling to be better people and there have been big improvements. However, i hate feeling on the defensive around someone all the time and am wondering if its tilting me into a downward spiral. We've both been under a huge amount of stress at work and we're moving into a new place together, but it doesnt seem like the happy time i feel it should be and the stress of moving has made things worse in fact. He is constantly stressing and when I have my own emotions and feelings he doesnt seem to know how to deal with them, despite chastising me for not being emotional enough in the past.
I was watching a video yesterday that made me giggle and i felt odd for a bit and then realised i havent laughed in months. I shock myself when i laugh now.
Am i going a bit mental again or is it him? Is it both?