Police video interview done. What next?

[EasyToEatTiger]

It lasted just over an hour. So many things rattling around in my head. What next? I slept in the nude because I expected my husband to have free access? I know well that he felt entitled to free access to my body, telling me I was His Wife. My anxiety levels have shot up.

I dread moving house. I have no job and no income. The dogs will not be safe to leave with my husband. They are family too.

How many dogs/animals do you have?

Letter sent to raise money for moving. Bloody hell. I know my elder daughter is looking forward to us going our separate ways. I don't know about my younger daughter. She has not been at the recieving end of my husband's vitriol.

I have 3 collies and a host of chickens and ducks. I have been well trained with the dogs and I'm told they're well behaved. My husband undoes the work which makes it very difficult at home. I remember thinking about 5 years ago that the problem was him, not us.

Life is just hell. Have spent most of the day in tears. I don't know what to do.

This too shall pass.

Have you made any progress?

didn't want to scroll by, flowers for you op xx

No progress at all. I don't have a job so will have to pay 6 months rent in advance with my savings. And I still won't have money to live off. I just can't go on like this, being the family punchbag usually metaphorically unless my husband is cheering my daughter on. Still nothing from IDVA. It's lonely.

So you haven't actually left already?

But you have the savings, you have looked at your entitlement, you have the beginnings of an escape plan and you have survived, and continue to survive this current hell...

Beating yourself up won't help you at all, baby steps to freedom and patting yourself on the back for every one

I don't yet have the money in my account. I hope I have asked the right people the right things. I have asked for all my money. There is none left. I hope to hear this week.

You will get through it and survive. You will.

Could you possibly re home the chickens and ducks? With regard to the dogs you may be surprised at how many places will in fact allow you to keep pets, it is always worth asking even if they stipulate that you can’t- as long as you promise to pay for any damage caused etc. Good luck I am thinking of you

Thank you. I have remembered that a friend has given me an old caravan. If I can find somewhere that I can have a caravan I will have a spare home and a home for the dogs. The caravan needs a bit of work on the roof. Ho hum....

You're dealing with so much just now. Things will get better.

There is too bloody much going on at the moment. If it were simply ploughing through this shit it would be bad enough. It's far more than that.