I think he's cheating again

[Cazerole]

I really don't know what to do about my relationship I think I'm scared to leave him, scared of being alone being a singke mum to 3 children, but he's cheating on me again I've been through hell with this man past 6 years but he changed he gave up drinking for me and our lg and we have had 2 more babies since then and we was happy, but I've seen messages from another woman who has split families up before flash up on his phone, he has rushed off to work and not come home till next day a couple of times and He's been horrible to me for months now accusing me of cheating if i im on my phone, telling me how useless I am that I'm an embarrassment to him tiniest mistake I make results in him yelling at me hes constantly bOssing me around i feel like he thinks im his servant . I'm so miserable and I did pack a bag and was going to leave him but didn't. My heads a mess I don't know what to do anymore my lg is such a sensitive person I don't know how she would cope with her daddy leaving again. Sorry if this didn't make much sense just need to rant I suppose

Hi Cazerole. I'm really sorry that you are having such a horrible time.

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Hi Caz, honestly I think your lg will cope better with her daddy leaving than watching him criticise and shout at her mum constantly. Leaving is ^huge^ and scary and will mean lots of upheaval and upset for everyone for a little while. But there will be an end point, where everything has settled down and everyone has got used to a new normal and there is peace and happiness again. If you stay there is no end in sight, you, and crucially your children, will be stuck living in this horrible, toxic environment indefinitely.

Have you thought about contacting Women's Aid? What you're experiencing is mental abuse and some support might help you get to a place where you feel strong enough to leave. They can help you make a safe plan to leave too and help with sorting financial and housing issues. The national (24hr) number is 0808 2000 247 but they do get really busy and it can be hard to get through. Keep trying or scroll down this page www.womensaid.org.uk/domestic-abuse-directory/ until you get to 'Search by region or local authority'. That will give you details of local services, they're usually only open office hours but it can be easier to get through to them than the main helpline.

You might be surprised how much difference just hearing a 'professional' confirm that you are in an abusive relationship will make to the way you feel, it might just give you the strength to do what you need to do. You deserve better than this though my love and so do your kids

Sorry you're going through this OP.
I've been through hell with this man past 6 years I've been on my own for years, it's certainly not hell. Life can be good. The sooner you can get away from this man the better. You deserve to be happy.