d has been quite ill all weekend, saturday night, i went up, she was boiling again and awake as she was so hot, got her mattress on florr and made make shift bed for myself to stay with her...she was chatting away,but kept saying her head was hurting and she was freezing..so roused dp from the dead! to go and get her some neurofen repeating it too him a million times to make sure he heard me correct...he brought it up and said there was only 2.5 ml left..there was 5ml in sringe?, said ok(had had a drink and was still half asleeep)..so gives it to dd, lays back down and she started to cough..then crying and sobbing, then sick,....everywhere..dp cam e back in.."What have you done!"????(first he heard was waking up to dd screaming and being sick)..i ignored him and carried on talking calmly to dd try to stop her coughing and throwing and take deep breaths, dp starts shouting i tell him "now" what i have done to her as she was fine 2 mins ago(half an hour ago, but hed gone back to sleep!)..then when i calmly but through gritted teethe told him to go away he was making things worse he told me he really wanted to punch me in the face!!!!, i bit the bait and told him too(never punched me before), then came to my senses and carryed on with dd...i told him to get me a towel to put under dd and get out..which he did.........next morning, he came in dd's room but inly heard him leave as was 1/2 asleep after restless night, then get a text asying he is disgusted with him saelf and is appalled at his behaviour, he doesnt know why he does it and is so sorry.
i didnt so much glance his way last night and havent tonight either............do i accept the apology?, he knows hes in the wrong(one of the very first times!) and i dont forsee it happening again as he realises what his actions have caused......and if i do accept, i have left it two days now?..do i speak?, cos he obv thinks i dont accept and wont speak to him??
sorry longwinded, but need a bit of help here