Hi all. Hope it's ok just to tell you my story and get advice and feedback.
Bit of back story, traumatic event in childhood (won't go details as could out me) it involved abandonment.
None of this was addressed by other family, social services, doctors no one but back then that was the culture.
I grow up no major issues at that point. Fell in love, had a child all was well then he walked out on us.
Reason he gave too young.
I then meet someone else too soon with hindsight. He was great to begin with but then started taking drugs and stopping out till all ours. This ended after a few years but crazily I got back with him. Had a daughter, this time is was drink with him. I am talking daily here and two bottles of wine.
I tried to save the relationship asking him to stop/cut back etc all fell on deaf ears.
I end it. Two years later I met and fall in love with someone else... he has two daughters with ex wife - all good then I discover he has been talking them out saying now and then it's just for the girls. To be honest it would have been okay with me but he hid it and that was the painful part for me.
Fast forward to now last week I lost it ! I rang 999 asking to be taken in as I felt a danger to myself. I was taken in they just spoke to me and have offered me on going home treatment. They are also looking at giving me anti anxiety mess as I still feel anxious a lot of the time.
I know this is all on record now and am fully prepared for them to contact my child's school.
Just don't know what to say when they start calling me in, which they will do. I don't want to make anything any worse.
Thanks if you have got this far and even more thanks if you have any advice